I opened my arms
And invited a curse
Let it into my mind
Wreaks havoc time to time
At times it brings peace
A sweet, soft release
Makes my decisions
Makes small incisions
Large enough to feel alive
Small enough to hide
If they were discovered
Bring me nothing but trouble
Long sleeves and dress pants
Can't hide them forever
So I hope and I pray
For continued cold weather
So I have an excuse for Jeans and Sweaters
Regret? Regret what I've done to myself?
How could I regret an escape from a hell?
I opened my arms
And invited a curse
2 Worlds
My world slows down as you speak to me
I peer into your deep eyes
You open your mouth, but what comes out, I can only consider a lie
"I love you."
You hate me.
"Forgive me"
Forget me.
Yet still I forgive, forgive, forgive.
As seasons pass, and feelings change, and I begin to regret it,
My mind tells me to pull away
My heart just says forget it.
For my heart, it builds a world, a world, a world for you and me
A world doomed for emptiness
My mind will remind me.
I opened my arms
And invited a curse
Let it into my mind
Wreaks havoc time to time
At times it brings peace
A sweet, soft release
Makes my decisions
Makes small incisions
Large enough to feel alive
Small enough to hide
If they were discovered
Bring me nothing but trouble
Long sleeves and dress pants
Can't hide them forever
So I hope and I pray
For continued cold weather
So I have an excuse for Jeans and Sweaters
Regret? Regret what I've done to myself?
How could I regret an escape from a hell?
I opened my arms
And invited a curse
When she was 5
Her dad would throw her in the air
And catch her again.
She loved the sensation.
.
When she was 10
She swung the highest
Letting go of rusted chains.
The seat buckled from the lack of her.
.
When she was 14
She turned her back, arms outstretched.
Rolling heels, trust fall.
Her love caught her
Till he left her.
.
When she was 15
The wind whipping her face.
She closed her eyes and remembered.
He used to catch her.
She wondered if he still would.
As she let go of the railings.
The depths claimed her body.
The sky her soul.
.
.
.
Falling is like flying, just a more permanent destination.
Oh this day of love that seems untrue
Leaves me to pine a pain I can’t undo
A pain that leaves me with no hope
No matter the eras that pass I cannot cope
Day by day the hole in my chest grows
And day by day I reach lower lows
What’s this? This moisture from my eyes
This familiar emotion causes my cries
The slow and mournful music does not help
It has me feeling like a little whelp
I fall to the floor and drown in my own tears
Like a child who cannot face one’s fears
And when I think I see a way out, a portal
As I walk through, I remember that I am mortal
I am supposed to feel pain, but not like this
When I cannot focus or